"Ready? Get set? GO!"
No, i am not ready. Get set? huh? is this really necessary? GO??!! now? already?? but i'm NOT READY!
Sometimes i feel this way. Not about marriage (jangan risau sayang). But about the whole wedding planning thing. Its in July. JULY! ...but its in full swing now, NOW! in JANUARY! i cant imagine (i really can't coz then i'll start panicking, for real) how it's going to be in may, even worse, in JUNE! OMG!!! (see, its starting)
I know that it's perfectly natural for girls (and women if you are those that think calling a woman, girl sounds immature), to imagine how their wedding day will be like since infancy, okay im exaggerating, since you can think!
For non-muslims and westerners, their think how they will walk down the decorated aisle, wearing their ballerina gown with their ballerina shoes, while the wedding march played from the church 100 years old organ, looking with tearful eyes to their hunkyhunky future husband ...with no face (though when you're 5 years old, you might have imagined marrying Tom Cruise. He was the it guy then for the 1980s kid. We deny the fact now coz...erm its Tom Cruise, except for Katie Holmes. I dont know what to say about her).
To us muslims and Malaysians, we played khawin-khawin where we would grab a reluctant (and sometimes not-so-reluctant) guy friend's arm and make him sit on a chair together with (the lucky?) girl and tadah! they are married! after that we have the kipas-kipas girls and a couple of friends that use mineral water in a bottle to soak "the newlywed couple" through and through. and rumput collected in bowl was place on their open palms and thrown everywhere. and if we have more than the 5 friends, we can play masak-masak too! so now we have a kenduri! that was our perception of a wedding ceremony. Wish it was that simple now.
Of course we thought about everything else too but we dont talk about it as much when we were younger coz nanti makbapakpakcikmakcik cakap anak depa gatai nak kawin.
Colours. Flowers. The wedding gifts. Honeymoon. Husband to be.
Everything have been thought about over and over and over again, until the day of the actual wedding day. By the time you are getting married, say 26 years old. That's a whole lotta years of thinking about a single day in your life!
Say you started playing with dolls and you have Barbie and Ken tying the knot at 5 years old. I deduct that is the time we started thinking about wedding (coz Barbie and Ken have to be married before they have sex and live together and for Barbie and Ken to be naked together and sleep on Barbie's pink queen size four poster bed, but maybe that is just me, but that is another story, and i am digressing. Moving on now....).
So anyway, started playing "the wedding" at 5, actual wedding at 26. That is a good 21 years of planning. As i said, whole lotta years to be planning for a really short period of time in retrospect of a whole lifetime.
Yet, it feels like im still not ready for the receptions.
The deco. the food. the photographer. the themes. the other stuff that wont compute in my head at this moment. It feels like i never, ever gave it any thought. And it doesnt help that i get new ideas for colours, dress, wedding favours, hantaran and its deco every day!
I cant decide from the many many choices i have. From the many many great, fantastic ideas thrown at me from everyone including people i dont know and people i will never know (not exclusive to each other nor inclusive). Therefore, combined with 21 other years of pre-planning, I am truly, truly overwhelmed.
A prime example of too much planning brings to indecisions ergo, no actual actions at all thus, defect the definition of planning and its purpose, and makes me sit down and surf the web and read more bridal magazines, therefore, giving me more great, fantastic ideas! which brings us back to more planning and the vicious cycle continues!
This is my current state of mind: Happy yet overwhelmed with a touch of panic.
You know what, this is what you call a panic post. The first post for my wedding series blogging.
If you dont like wedding related posting, tell me so i can save on the stamps and invitation cards. Orrrrr...you can visit some of the other 112, 000, 000 blogs available on the world wide web *as of December 2007, based on Technorati index.
Yours truly,
The Panicking Bride
January 2008
No, i am not ready. Get set? huh? is this really necessary? GO??!! now? already?? but i'm NOT READY!
Sometimes i feel this way. Not about marriage (jangan risau sayang). But about the whole wedding planning thing. Its in July. JULY! ...but its in full swing now, NOW! in JANUARY! i cant imagine (i really can't coz then i'll start panicking, for real) how it's going to be in may, even worse, in JUNE! OMG!!! (see, its starting)
I know that it's perfectly natural for girls (and women if you are those that think calling a woman, girl sounds immature), to imagine how their wedding day will be like since infancy, okay im exaggerating, since you can think!
For non-muslims and westerners, their think how they will walk down the decorated aisle, wearing their ballerina gown with their ballerina shoes, while the wedding march played from the church 100 years old organ, looking with tearful eyes to their hunkyhunky future husband ...with no face (though when you're 5 years old, you might have imagined marrying Tom Cruise. He was the it guy then for the 1980s kid. We deny the fact now coz...erm its Tom Cruise, except for Katie Holmes. I dont know what to say about her).
To us muslims and Malaysians, we played khawin-khawin where we would grab a reluctant (and sometimes not-so-reluctant) guy friend's arm and make him sit on a chair together with (the lucky?) girl and tadah! they are married! after that we have the kipas-kipas girls and a couple of friends that use mineral water in a bottle to soak "the newlywed couple" through and through. and rumput collected in bowl was place on their open palms and thrown everywhere. and if we have more than the 5 friends, we can play masak-masak too! so now we have a kenduri! that was our perception of a wedding ceremony. Wish it was that simple now.
Of course we thought about everything else too but we dont talk about it as much when we were younger coz nanti makbapakpakcikmakcik cakap anak depa gatai nak kawin.
Colours. Flowers. The wedding gifts. Honeymoon. Husband to be.
Everything have been thought about over and over and over again, until the day of the actual wedding day. By the time you are getting married, say 26 years old. That's a whole lotta years of thinking about a single day in your life!
Say you started playing with dolls and you have Barbie and Ken tying the knot at 5 years old. I deduct that is the time we started thinking about wedding (coz Barbie and Ken have to be married before they have sex and live together and for Barbie and Ken to be naked together and sleep on Barbie's pink queen size four poster bed, but maybe that is just me, but that is another story, and i am digressing. Moving on now....).
So anyway, started playing "the wedding" at 5, actual wedding at 26. That is a good 21 years of planning. As i said, whole lotta years to be planning for a really short period of time in retrospect of a whole lifetime.
Yet, it feels like im still not ready for the receptions.
The deco. the food. the photographer. the themes. the other stuff that wont compute in my head at this moment. It feels like i never, ever gave it any thought. And it doesnt help that i get new ideas for colours, dress, wedding favours, hantaran and its deco every day!
I cant decide from the many many choices i have. From the many many great, fantastic ideas thrown at me from everyone including people i dont know and people i will never know (not exclusive to each other nor inclusive). Therefore, combined with 21 other years of pre-planning, I am truly, truly overwhelmed.
A prime example of too much planning brings to indecisions ergo, no actual actions at all thus, defect the definition of planning and its purpose, and makes me sit down and surf the web and read more bridal magazines, therefore, giving me more great, fantastic ideas! which brings us back to more planning and the vicious cycle continues!
This is my current state of mind: Happy yet overwhelmed with a touch of panic.
You know what, this is what you call a panic post. The first post for my wedding series blogging.
If you dont like wedding related posting, tell me so i can save on the stamps and invitation cards. Orrrrr...you can visit some of the other 112, 000, 000 blogs available on the world wide web *as of December 2007, based on Technorati index.
Yours truly,
The Panicking Bride
January 2008
2 comments:
I like your post today. Very funny and descriptive. You should feel honoured that your wedding's probably the very first wedding of a close friend I'm attending, ha ha. Me? I visualize that my wedding will either take place by a volcano or I'd probably run into a huge space shuttle with my new-hubby to blast off to the moon for our honeymoon (figured that anyone can easily be a space tourist sooner or later, and crossing my fingers that AirAsia can do space tourism for RM10...).
I'm really happy that you're taking the big step. Wishing you luck for your preparations. And oh, shut it. You're not *that* panicked! You're super thrilled! He he. Don't worry, everything's going to be picture perfect :)
D, hands.. off... panic... button!!!
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